Me Than Me Now


I've seen the change in me in the past year. Yet that might not be a long time of a change, but it is a change. Right? Last year I was weak, and I was always sad, I would cry myself to sleep, I would fight with everyone, and I was selfish. I didn't apperciate what I had, I just kept wanting and wanting and I wasn't giving. My parents would do so much, and I just kept doing things behind their backs. The arguing, and the fighting around my house wasn't about my nephew's bad grades, or the bills, it was about ME always fucking up, my dad honestly thought I was not going to have a life. I would walk by the restroom and I could hear my mom crying, knowing that it was all my fault, I felt awful. Realzing that I need to change myways, and FAST! Before my family falls apart, I had no one to talk to, I had no trust in no one, and it was hard, not having someone there.
Till' this day I apologize to my parents about the way I behaved, and the actions I had choose, and I'm now willing to think before I do anything. Its called Growing Up. I love my parents dearly, and I've learned not to take advantage of them when they do so much for me.
Iloveyou..