I did it again!

I have wasted my time once more another thing to be disappointed about! Never again am I going to do this to myself. Every fucking time when I am happy something has to come up and fuck everything up! I am a very emotion person not just because I'm a girl because I usually just hold in my feelings. But for some odd reason I just cant anymore. I just have this anger built inside of me and just pain and its all flowing out of me! I don't even know what to say.